Gut Instinct

✍ Scribed by Mather, Linda

• Book ID: 107221101
• Publisher: Create space
• Year: 2012
• Tongue: English
• Weight: 110 KB
• Category: Fiction

✦ Synopsis

Prologue

“I knew I was an unwanted baby when I saw my bath toys were a toaster and a radio”
I’ve never forgotten that quote,
I’d read it in one of my mothers magazines, it was Joan Rivers and I had spent hours admiring her photograph believing that this was what I should look like, be like.
I was about thirteen at the time. She, Joan Rivers, had the same kind of mother as I had. I no longer felt so alone in the world, knowing there were others just like me.
One day I will be famous I had thought, and I will say things like that, let them know exactly what my mother was – a whore, a child abuser and a nonentity, at least she was now.
I’d had dreams, dreams that never came true, my life, and my waking hours had been one long nightmare and my sleep had been my respite where I could wish for happier times, when I could dream about blissful times, about becoming someone like Joan Rivers.
My dreams are what kept me sane, kept me from wanting to die, when I awoke from the dream I would want to sleep again to go back into the dream that helped me to escape my miserable life.
Being born is like a lottery, you don’t know which mother you are going to get. I was number 326 lining up waiting to be embedded in some woman’s womb; ironically 325 didn’t feel well on the day of my consummation so was made to sit out.
If he had been well then my life might have been so very different, I would have got a nice mother then. Instead I got вЂ